We all have knee-jerk reactions to suffering. My knee-jerk reaction? I tend to go numb. I find it really hard to pray. After a while, a niggling sense of shame at the poor state of my prayer life may creep in. I think to myself, I should be worshiping God and being positive despite my circumstances! Why can’t I get rid of this horrible numbness inside?!
And the chasm that lies between my true feelings and my intellectual faith swallows me up. It makes me feel distant from God.
How about you? How do you react when you are completely overwhelmed by life’s brokenness? I’m not talking about what you think you should do. I’m talking about what you actually do.
Do you try your best not to complain (with varying degrees of success!)? Do you shut down your feelings, as a coping mechanism? Do you try using positive thinking strategies to overcome your pain, but you end up feeling even worse because it doesn’t seem to be working? Do you feel distant from God, like I do?
In this series, I’ve got some embarrassing stories and a favourite Bible passage to share. Plus, there are some free resources at the end, designed to help you throw your burdens onto Jesus.
May God reassure you of his love and help you draw near to him as you read.