Category: Grief

Job’s Groaning (Job 3:24-25)

I studied the book of Job last year with some people from church. Wow. What stunned me more than Job’s great suffering (which I already knew about) and his insensitive friends (I knew about them too) was his sheer nerve at speaking honestly about his pain. Job says, “I cannot eat for sighing; my groans …

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But God Intended it for Good – Joseph’s Story (Gen 50:19)

My 7-year-old asked me the other day, “If God controls everything, does that mean he controls us too?” I gave him a high five for asking such a perceptive question — go, little philosopher! The intersection of God’s sovereignty and people’s free will is a mystery. From my reading, it seems that both are equally …

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Be Happy With Those Who are Happy (Rom 12:15)

It’s a family tradition to attend the annual Lego exhibition — well, my husband and kids go; I usually stay home because a trip to the city puts enormous pressure on my immune system. On the day of the 2015 Lego show I was in the throes of post-diagnosis depression. I found it soul-destroying to …

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Weep With Those Who Weep (Rom 12:15)

A while back, I learnt all about grief. I understood that grief is an ongoing cycle rather than a straight line with a neatly tied up end point. Armed with that knowledge, I felt empowered. It lessened the guilt and confusion I’d been experiencing about not “getting over it” as soon as I’d expected. But …

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The Lord is Close to the Brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18)

I blinked vacantly at my feet. My breathing was finally back to its usual predictable in-and-out rhythm. Wiping my wet eyes with the heels of my hands, I wondered if I’d be able to face walking back into church — the sermon had probably begun by now and I didn’t want people to see I’d …

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When Christmas Makes You Sad

Christmas is something I really look forward to these days! But it wasn’t always that way. For many years I felt a sense of dread and despair whenever I even thought about family occasions like Christmas Day. If Christmas is a joyful time for you, that’s wonderful! I’m sharing the poem, below, to give you …

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When Thankfulness Doesn’t Help you Feel Better

This is the whole Thankfulness Mini-Series in one post. It’s a 10-minute read. If you prefer to read shorter posts, I understand: brain fog is real! I’ve divided this longish post into three shorter sections, which you can find here.  .. .. I’m a big believer in thankfulness. It’s important and beneficial to count your …

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Yet I Still Dare to Hope (Hope Series #2)

This is Part 2 of the Hope Series. You can read Part 1 here. It’s been a year since I embarked on that new treatment path. Sadly, none of the prescribed medications or supplements have made a significant impact on my ability to function. Some of them have even made me feel worse! What sorts …

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Bible Heroes Who Groaned (Groaning – Part #1)

This is Part 1 of the Groaning Series. You can read the intro here. Groaning: a godly response to suffering?! After studying the book of Job last year, I realised something: I’ve been putting a lid on my sorrow. I’ve been keeping my grief to myself, rather than talking to God about it. I don’t …

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Hope #1 – When Hope Hurts (2 Cor 1:8-10)

Last month I met with a new specialist. What a turbulent time it’s been! We’ve embarked on a new treatment path – possibly a dwindling dead end; possibly a tree-lined avenue with heady horizons of restored health. New insights have been offered. New tests have been ordered. New treatments are being trialed – which may …

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